Where did it go?

I don't know where my work out spark went. It's gone, and I miss it tremendously. I wish it would come back... For many years I have needed one week off from work out a few times a year to get the spark to come back. This time it's been gone for a month, and I have been working out once or twice a week, out of pity. You know how good you feel after a work out, even if the thought of it before you got there was dreadful? Well, I haven't even had that... So, it's gone, and I miss it tremendously... 

I am a cardio lover, as a spinning instructor of course I love cardio. After our successful 10k run in January I wanted to run more, and farther. I started my quest to run a half marathon. I knew I could do it. I used the app Runkeeper to keep me on my toes with running four times a week, following a special training program. It was going great. I even ran 15k for the first time in my life, and it felt fantastic! 

Then around Chinese New Year I started to have bad asthma attacks. So bad that I time after time had to stop running and walk back with my breathing severely choked. That was even if I took asthma medicine before the run, and brought it along to use in case of emergency. It didn't help. Okay I thought, it's going to be better soon. I had a theory that if I ran on the treadmill I could keep going, but it didn't help to go inside... Sometimes I can run on the treadmill for 15 mins, slow, but then it gets difficult to breath again. This was in February, it's now May, and it's not really better. It sucks. I hate it. So I now try to go to strength training, weight lifting, and that's boring. I am trying to enjoy it,  but I don't really, and that is sad. I know it's good for me, but I cannot get around to it as often as I should. Any excuse it seems like is a good excuse to not work out right now, and that's not me. 

I miss my work out spark, I miss it tremendously.