Sigh...

Since I've been working with editing the Swedish monthly magazine Bulletinen now in InDesign I decided to be a bit creative and make my resume in InDesign. Because, obviously, I have to do something to stand out, even if it's just on paper. So far I haven't had any luck finding a job. It's a lot tougher than I expected. I almost feel defeated... I think I am pursuing the job hunt the wrong way, but I just don't know how to do it. I feel my hands are tied a bit since: 
A. I don't have any money. 
B. I don't have business cards. 
C. I don't have a Hong Kong bank account yet, so events and such that must be paid in advance becomes more complicated to attend. 

I have to ask Honey to help me pay for stuff that needs Internet banking (they haven't developed the credit card online payment that well here yet). It's frustrating. I hate asking for help. And Honey is stressed as it is. I want to be able to do that by myself. I know, small things, but they are still big obstacles for me... 

I will pick up my HKID this coming Wednesday, perhaps after that I can go open a bank account. 

Why is it so difficult to ask for help? Even if it is asking my husband, who I know don't mind? I feel handicapped when I can't take care of things myself. 

Sorry, I know it's Friday and all, but I just feel frustrated today. I know it will be better soon, and there is no giving up. I know something will come along eventually, it will be okay, of course it will...