It's just amazing how life changes after a baby enters. I know, people told me all the time, but you really don't understand until it's your turn. Not only life and habits change, priorities change too. All of a sudden it's more about baby Ella than myself. Naturally her needs are put first. Next week she turns three months, time flies.
I always thought of myself as a city person, I need to be where things happen. With baby Ella in my life my previous priorities and preferences of where to live seem to have changed. The thought of Ella not being able to grow up in a house, with a yard and the possibility to play with neighboring kids scares me. Is Hong Kong really the right place to raise kids? I would be very unfair if I say you can't raise kids here, people do it all the time. But when you grew up in a boring but very safe environment of a small town it seems cruel to have to grow up in a tiny, cramped apartment on the 16th floor with only scheduled playdates. However, as long as we live in Hong Kong I don't think there will be any possibilities of a house. Let's see if the compromise of a floor in a three-storey village house outside the city works as a substitute.
Also, after my 10 weeks of maternity leave I realized there is no way I can leave this precious girl in the arms of a stranger and I quit my job. It did feel a bit sad as I did enjoy it a lot. Money-wise will be a bit scarce, but it must be worth it. If we can live on one salary for awhile so I can stay home with Ella, then that is the best solution. I feel blessed to be able to do that.
Life changes, and that is a good thing. As my dad always say, "Kids are the reason to live" (or something like that), and he's absolutely right!
